contemplating motherhood....

As I write this I am about to embark on the exciting (rather terrifying) journey that is motherhood in about 12 weeks time!  Just writing that number is increasing my anxiety levels...  As I think about preparing to become a mother I am so aware that it is so much than deciding on what colour to paint the room; buying all the stuff you need (which I have done none of yet - can you believe that!); etc; etc...  It's about getting to grips with the fact that you will be a parent to another human being - another live person who will enter this world and who you have responsibilities towards.  Man that thought blows my mind.....  I see why we have nine months to prepare for becoming mothers (and fathers!)!  Anything less would not do justice to the emotional and psychological preparation that one needs to undergo as parents.

As I watched the news last night with Alphonso I was struck by how very angry the world we live in is.  Is this the kind of world I want to raise a child in?  What is the solution to the anger?  What can we do to help those who are angry?  Having sat with a client who was struggling with anger I can see how anger poisons the soul and creates barriers between people.  A truly sad situation to be part of - and we are all part of this angry world.  And so as I contemplate becoming a mother I wonder what I can do to show my son both sides of anger and to help him learn to deal with his own anger and the anger that will undoubtly come his way.   And for me - what do I do with my anger....  I am left thinking about a rather corny quote that gets bandied about in anger management workshops - (hopefully I can get this right) anger can cook the carrot and it can also start a veld fire (apologies to those who actually know the exact quote - this is what I remember!).  How can anger be used constructively?